Emily
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Post by Emily on Mar 3, 2010 10:16:26 GMT -5
Today is probably the first day in a while that I have had a hard time. I am just so emotional and the sound of my two little boys is bothering me. Mainly because they are constantly fighting. I feel completely emotionally out of control. I am angry to the point I would probably beat my children, if I didn't know it was wrong. I want to crawl into my bed and cry all day long and not move. I have not appetite, no motivation. I go back to see my Dr. today which will make it 6 weeks from my D&C. Still no AF, and 2 neg. preg tests. Is it worth asking her to check my HCG levels? I am so new at the loosing a baby part that I don't know what to ask my dr. about. All I know is that I am really sad today.
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Post by Tina Jo Young on Mar 3, 2010 11:46:34 GMT -5
You need to ask for the HCG levels!!! I knew I was losing my baby 2/12 and I had my levels checked once a week... I went this Monday 3/1 and they were 6.1. It does take awhile for them to go out of your body...but I would ask....and tell her everything that is going on.. write questions and concerns down so that you can discuss everything with him/her that is bothering you... it sometimes takes 4-6 weeks for it to start.
I understand having hard days....they come and go.... I teach school and there are days I feel myself getting irritable and can't stand myself.... I take a lot out on my dh and I shouldnt.. I feel bad when I do this....but theres times I cant stand myself....thats when I go have some "me time." If you need me.....please pm me or if u have myspace or facebook I am on there.... my Name: Tina Young from Booneville, KY if u want to search me!
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Emily
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Post by Emily on Mar 3, 2010 12:20:00 GMT -5
Thanks Tina. I just may take you up on the facebook thing. I am headed into my dr. office in about 30 min. I just got done talking to my family councilor and it helped a bit. But I still need to figure out what is going on with my body. I just so badly want to have that child I should have been 3 months along with by now. I think being around my 4 month old niece was harder on me that I thought it would be. I enjoyed holding her, but now that she isn't here it feels empty.
I also decided that I'm not going to work after my dr. appointment. I'm going to go get my hair done!
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Post by Tina Jo Young on Mar 3, 2010 12:31:57 GMT -5
There you go thats the spirit.....get out and enjoy things..... go get hair done...nails...tan.. whatever makes you happy!!!! Get things off your mind!!! The hardest thing to do after a mc or bo is to start living again......because it does make you depressed!
Look me on facebook...... I am on it alot.....when I am home and not working........good way for us to talk!
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Emily
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Post by Emily on Mar 3, 2010 14:23:11 GMT -5
Just left the dr. office. She wants to wait about two weeks to test hormone levels, which I'm okay with. She is testing my vit d levels though. She told me if I haven't gotten my AF in the next two weeks and a pref test is still neg to call her. So here's to wondering what's going on for the next two weeks!
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Post by mzr on Mar 3, 2010 14:48:29 GMT -5
Emily- I hope you have a stunning new hair cut! Good for you for taking care of yourself today! Grief is an emotional rollercoaster to say the least so be kind to yourself and honor your feelings. Obviously, don't hit your children, but it's okay to be so annoyed and frustrated with the world right now. And, I'm sure that it was hard to hold another baby. Remember that your hormones levels are dropping. Just like PMS or PPD, your body is a bit off-kilter right now.
More waiting is no fun. I wanted AF to arrive the minute after my D&C. But I also think your doctor is taking the "conservative" approach by waiting. 4-6wks is average for AF to return but that means that it takes some women longer. My HCG levels did not return to normal on their own after my BO so I understand the frustration you are feeling right now. But, I am the extremely rare case. My doctor did the same thing and wouldn't test me until 8wks post D&C. But I wasn't as good as you are at pampering myself in the interim and I do believe that that was part of it (I had my wisdom teeth out 3wks post D&C). Be kind and gentle to yourself. Warm baths, a glass of wine, a haircut, a good cry too if you need it. Know that what you are feeling is completely normal and that the rollercoaster does slow down with time.
We are here if you need us, Marisa
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Post by jaimec on Mar 4, 2010 16:58:59 GMT -5
Hi Emily, My AF took 6 weeks to return after my D&C and it was the longest wait of my life i swear. I so remember that down feeling in the weeks past my D&C it was awful. mzr is so right i hope you have treated yourself to some me time. it seems weird but sometimes some time out from life to concentrate on you is what you need. Grief takes us all in differing ways. I remember feeling so angry at work that i just could not breathe and felt like i was walking thru a fog at all times. It does get better, promise. Hang on in there
Jaime x
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