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Post by sweetcali on Sept 27, 2005 19:18:57 GMT -5
Hi. My name is Abigail, and I just found this board yesterday. I've been reading and reading...and finally decided to stop lurking and just ask for some baby vibes and prayers. My story started Sept 9th, and I feel like I've been on an emotional roller coaster. What keeps me going are my 2 wonderful boys, age 3 and 18 mo. For about 2 weeks I was doing hCG tests, and had one ultrasound. According to my LMP, I should be 8 or 9 weeks. My hCG were very confusing as it had gone down a bit, and then back up, sometimes doubling and sometimes just going up a little bit. My Dr decided to do an u/s and it showed an empty sac. We did a few more hCG blood draws, and my hCG still wasn't what he was looking for. Anyhow, my 2nd u/s is on Oct 3rd - which seems like a million years from now. We will determine then whether or not I will schedule a d&c based on what we find. The Dr is telling me that I have very little hope as my hCG should double in 48 hours every time, not just once in awhile. He also told me that he can't tell me for sure if I am just really really early. Thank you everyone for sharing your stories. I cried so much last night, tears of joy and tears of sadness as I read all the stories here. Please send me some + baby vibes and prayers. I know this isn't my first, but still my baby and I never knew that it would be this painful to think that I might have lost my baby... Thanks, Abigail
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Post by kurby68 on Sept 27, 2005 21:09:24 GMT -5
Abigail
My bo was my 3rd pregnancy too. I am sorry for what you are dealing with and waiting makes it that much harder.
I wish I had answers for you and I pray that all works out for you.
((((((((((hugs))))))))) Take care
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Post by reannalyn79 on Sept 27, 2005 21:52:45 GMT -5
Abigail,
Please know that you are not alone. I had my first B/O last week and I've never been so bummed out in my life. I never thought that it would be this hard until it happened.
Remember to take care of yourself and let your feelings out however you need to. Hang in there and know that I'm saying a little prayer for you. I have a beautiful almost four year old boy, Logan. I have tried to take my pain and channel it through to him with love. It's all I can think to do.
Whatever is taken from you God can restore 100 fold. Hang onto that and God bless you and your family.
Reanna
God bless.
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Post by vernkatherine on Sept 28, 2005 5:26:16 GMT -5
Abigail:
I am so sorry you are going through this. October 3 does seem like a lifetime away. We all know how horrible it is to wait. You are in my thoughts & prayers and know we are all here for you. Please keep us updated.
Best wishes to you and your family.
Katherine
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Post by justinsmomma on Sept 28, 2005 5:41:36 GMT -5
Hi Abigail,
Lots of prayers and positive thoughts for you Abigail! Is there a reason why your Dr.'s are monitoring you so closely? I guess sometimes its a blessing, sometimes a curse. Big big HUGS sweetheart. God is with you, right now. It is through our worst moments that He carries you. Stay strong and keep praying.
HUGS HUGS HUGS
Kris
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Post by shann on Sept 28, 2005 8:28:50 GMT -5
I am so sorry you are going through this Abigail.
You are definitely not alone in this and the waiting is awful. Thoughts and best wishes to you!
Shann
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Post by Heather (hlam) on Sept 28, 2005 13:39:41 GMT -5
Abigail, I am sending lots of prayers & hugs your way! My BO was also my 3rd pregnancy and I also have 2 DS's. I am sorry that you've had reason to find us but I hope you know that you've found a wonderful and supportive bunch of ladies! If you need anything....just ask and someone here will probably be able to help you. We'll also listen if you just need to vent! I know waiting is hard......I wish you all the best!
Take Care!
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Post by Egirl on Sept 28, 2005 23:06:53 GMT -5
Hi Abigail, I just read about your situation and I am going to be keeping you in my thoughts and prayers. I have 2 healthy DS's and had a BO in June. It was a shock and a sad time. I understand some of what you feel right now.....although we all deal with it in our own way. This is the place you should come for support and advice. The girls here are wonderful. They helped me to get through my BO. I felt for awhile that time was standing still between the 's until my next U/S to determine if I was for sure having a BO. But....I PROMISE things do get better. There is light at the end of this tunnel. Please hang in there, visit us here often, and know that we all care very much. Hugs!!! Erin
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Post by sweetcali on Sept 28, 2005 23:37:56 GMT -5
Thank you thank you everyone! Reading everyone's experience has put a bit of peace in my heart. I'm not sure what it is exactly, but its all very helpful. I haven't cried for 24 hours! And I feel like Monday is getting closer faster. I hate the my heart just feels like I am pregnant, and my brain is fighting it. BUT for now, my heart is winning, and well, helping me cope I guess. I hate that my heart is winning though...I'm scared of the disappointment I might face on Monday.
Anyhow, thank you so much for your thoughts and prayers! They help!!!
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Post by sweetcali on Oct 4, 2005 10:16:12 GMT -5
Just wanted to let everyone know that I had my 2nd u/s yesterday. It confirmed my worst fear. I have been in limbo for 4 weeks now, and am scheduling for a d&C this week. I just can't wait any longer for my body to figure out that its time to let go of the empty sac.
Thank you for your cyberspace support.
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Post by andee on Oct 4, 2005 10:31:22 GMT -5
Good luck!I am sorry for your loss.
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Post by kurby68 on Oct 5, 2005 17:44:01 GMT -5
Good luk and let us know if you need anything.
Take care
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Post by Blighted Ovum Board Admin on Oct 6, 2005 19:22:25 GMT -5
(((((sweetcali)))))) I'm so sorry I had a D and C, it was honestly not that bad--very little pain and the time in the hospital was brief, I think I was in at 8 and home by 2pm. The only thing that hurt was peeing afterwards (they make you go before they will let you leave) and it was just the one time. Otherwise, the best I could explain it was a slightly "raw" feeling. I'm not a tough kind of gal either, I'm a bit of a baby. **hugs** Keep us posted Lin
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Post by Charlotte on Oct 6, 2005 23:05:33 GMT -5
I am so sorry. Hang in there. You and your family will be in my prayers this week.
Charlotte
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