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Post by Egirl on Aug 10, 2005 13:43:29 GMT -5
Today I am truly living in a big question mark. At what I thought was about 6 wks. along, I had some spotting. Light, but definitely there. Went for an Internal U/S and was told I definitely had a Blighted Ovum. Nothing seen. I decided to wait for the Natural M/C process. I'm now supposed to be about 11 weeks and I have gone many days without any spotting, and a few days with some discharge and light spotting. No pain at all...yet. My blood levels continue to rise as if I am pregnant. Doubling every couple weeks. The doctors do not understand why my levels continue to rise when I have a B/O? Having had a molar pregnancy in the past, I suggested this might be the case in light of the rising HCG levels. My doctor agreed that it very well could be. Of course they gave me a glimer of hope (1% chance) that there is a baby. (Where the heck was it then on the U/S? I am in shock that I could be having a Molar Pregnancy because I've already had one back with my very 1st pregnancy many years ago. They told me it was RARE and would likely not happen again. (Why does it seem like when doctors tell you it won't happen again...it does?) I ended up with a rare form of cancer caused by the Molar (moles) and had to follow up with a year of Chemo! Ugh! It was a challenge in my life. I went on though a few years later to have 2 normal pregnancies and have 2 healthy boys (9 and 11). My 2nd U/S is at 8:00 a.m. tomorrow (8/11). Don't know if DH and I can bear to see another "nothing." Especially if it turns out to be another Molar with the potential for the cancer to return. Am trying not to FOOL myself into thinking there's been a mistake with the B/O and that a baby will come of this. I guess anything is possible....right? Will get the results tomorrow. If B/O or Molar for sure, I will opt for the D&C on Friday (8/12). Anyone dealt with this type of confusion in diagnosis? The wait is the killer. I've been feeling pregnant of course because of my levels rising. My poor body! I just need this over with ASAP. Thanks for listening! You are all wonderful support. Happy Day to you~ Erin Mom of Walker (11) and Noah (9) Wife to the love of my life (Sean)
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Post by Heather (hlam) on Aug 10, 2005 14:26:26 GMT -5
Erin, I'm sorry to hear that you had to go through a Molar Pregnancy before........and the treatment for the rare cancer that it causes. I will be praying for you that that isn't the case this time. I know how worried I was until I was told for sure that it was a BO and not a Molar pregnancy. For me they had to test the "products of conception" to make a definate diagnosis. Okay, I just looked up Molar Pregnancy and it says that a complete Molar pregnancy does have characteristics that can be seen via u/s. A partial is more difficult to diagnose because it can show an empty sac just like a BO. Says risk for a repeat is 1-2% in people that have had a previous Molar.....although with advanced maternal age (40+) the risk is 5-10 times higher. HCG levels with complete molar are abnormally high where they can be somewhat high to normal with a partical molar pregnancy. "Almost all patients with a complete molar pregnancy have vaginal bleeding in the first trimester. For the most part the symptoms mimic those of a miscarriage. 50% of patients with a complete mole have uterine enlargement which is advanced for their gestational age. As is true in normal pregnancy, nausea and vomiting are common complaints. The disease toxemia, marked by high blood pressure, swelling and protein in the urine, which is for the most part limited to the third trimester can be seen before 20 weeks in patients with a complete mole. A few patients can have findings of hyperthyroidism such as a fast heart beat, tremulousness, and feeling warm. " I hope that you find out some answers tomorrow with your ultrasound. I will be hoping for the best for you. Hang in there!
Take Care
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Post by stacym on Aug 10, 2005 17:54:33 GMT -5
I am sorry you are in limbo alos. It is by far the worst place to be. As far as HCG numbers go, my OB said it was perfectly "normal" for numbers to continue going up for weeks with a BO because there is enough placenta to support the hormones. Most of the time it will take weeks(instead of days) to see the doubling numbers. It is one of those "tricks" of nature with a BO--you still feel very pregnant even weeks after finding out there is not a viable pregnancy.
Hope you get some answers tomorrow. Stacy
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Post by Egirl on Aug 10, 2005 23:22:53 GMT -5
Hi Stacy and Heather,
Thanks for your concern and support. Thanks (Heather) for your research. With my 1st Molar, I only knew something was wrong when I became violently ill heading into my 2nd trimester. I had no other symptoms. No discharge or bleeding or pain. I thought it was odd for me to have morning sickness so late in the game. I couldn't get away from the toilet and was dehydrated. They saw the MOLES (looks like swiss cheese) on the U/S of course and sched. a D&C pronto. And then...there was the cancer. Ugh. I was much younger then (20) and tougher I think. Heh. I have only had slight nausea with this preg. and not feeling much of anything like that now. In fact, except for feeling heavy and bloated...I feel great.
Now at 37 my life has changed so much. I went on to have 2 healthy babies in my late twenties. DH and I thought we were done, but decided to try for 1 more. Now I am 37 (Dr. says my age has little to do with a B/O or Molar). But, I still question whether or not this is true.
I'm having no cramps, no pain and little to no bleeding. Most of all I am having thick, clearish mucus discharge. It's like egg yolk. Very icky...sorry for the description! I am just NOT up for another Molar. When they did the 1st U/S at 6 wks and thought it was a B/O, I specifically asked the Technician and the Dr. about Molar. They both assured me it WAS NOT. Guess....Dr.'s can be wrong eh?
We'll see tomorrow. I am nervous, anxious, and just wound pretty tight. Will make it through of course, either way. Just wish it could be easier (for us all). I will be brave when I hear the news. Have 2 other DS's that need their Mom.
Thanks again for your support. You guys are great! I will update you when I can.
Hugs~ Erin
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Post by vernkatherine on Aug 11, 2005 5:27:53 GMT -5
Erin:
I'm sorry to hear about your situation. Please do update when you can. I'll be thinking and praying for you and your family!
Katherine
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Post by Heather (hlam) on Aug 11, 2005 6:55:57 GMT -5
Erin, I also have too DS's. My 3rd pregnancy was my BO. I just wanted to say that I also had a clear mucus like discharge with my BO......That was just about the only thing I noticed different from my previous pregnancies. Normally I would have the clear mucus like discharge closer to the end of my pregnancies but with BO it started in 1st trimester. I could be corrected on this but I think that clear mucus discharge comes from your cervix thinning out! I will be hoping for the best for you today with your U/S. Just know that there are many people here that are more than willing to offer you support if things don't go so well. I'll be thinking of you.
Take Care
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Post by kurby68 on Aug 11, 2005 9:10:56 GMT -5
Erin
I like you had 2 children when I had my b/o. I am 37 yrs old and was told that unfortunatel 25 - 30 % of all pregnancies end in m/c and that is was just bad luck.
I hope that at the u/s you get some answers. I have seen women come back from u/s w/ a heartbeat and others w/ a bo.
I wish I could take away your worries and give you the answers that you want. Please keep us posted.
(((((((((9hugs))))))))))
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Post by Egirl on Aug 11, 2005 13:28:21 GMT -5
Hi Gals~
I'm back from my U/S. Good News....No Molar Pregnancy! Can you say...RELIEF? Bad News....definitely a B/O. Somehow though, I felt a bit of calm over me when the Dr. told me they saw no sign of a Molar. Strange as that sounds. So, Friday (8-12) I got in to the hospital at noon for the D&C. Wanted so much to wait it out, but my Doc doesn't think it's wise due to a possible infection. My body doesn't seem to want to cooperate so far in the M/C process. Could take many more weeks, and the DH and I want to get on with our lives and TTC again. Anethesia and I do NOT get along well, so that is my main dread. Always hate that feeling of being "knocked out cold." Coming around for me is hard. But, I keep telling myself things could be so much worse. I have to be thankful for the fact that I actually CAN get pregnant. My husband had a reversal last Fall and we didn't know if it would even work! But...low and behold it did just six months later! That is GOOD news. So, we will try, try again. In the meantime, THANK YOU for being so sweet and supportive. I am usually very private and try to keep things to myself. Always feel I need to be TOUGH. You all have touched my heart and actually brought a few tears to my eyes with your kindness here. I will say "hi" again once the surgery is over.
Take care and here's wishing the very best to all of you and "yours."
Erin Mother to Walker (11) and Noah (9) Wife to the love of my life (Sean)
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Post by Egirl on Aug 11, 2005 13:32:49 GMT -5
Just a note: My thoughts and positive energy go with all of you for the painful experiences you have also had. Sharing your stories is what makes it easier for those of us currently in crisis. I will keep you in my thoughts as I begin to feel sorry for my own circumstances, realizing we are really all in this together. Thank you so much.
Erin
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Post by kurby68 on Aug 11, 2005 13:34:17 GMT -5
Erin
I will send you ((((((((hugs)))))))) and prayers and hopes thst Friday goes well for you.
Take care
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Post by thurese on Aug 11, 2005 14:37:02 GMT -5
Erin, I am so very happy that you DO NOT have a molar. I know that with your past experience, another molar pregnancy would have been a nightmare. I am going through that experience now (although fortunately my levels are almost negative) and it makes me so happy to hear you are not going to have to relive the mess. I am sorry about your loss...it is such a tough time. I hope your body cooperates so you can return to some form of normalcy. All the best, ~Thurese
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Post by Heather (hlam) on Aug 11, 2005 15:09:03 GMT -5
Erin, Thats great news that you don't have a Molar pregnancy this time......although having a BO is still difficult to deal with i'm sure. I hope for a quick return to normal after your D & C so that you can get back to TTC. I also wanted to say that I appreciate all of your kind words. I hope that you keep coming here and sharing your thoughts and feelings with us. I know that I totally understand that staying "tough" philosophy. However there are times when we need to know that we aren't the only ones going through something! I will be keeping you in my thoughts and prayers!
Take Care!
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Post by vernkatherine on Aug 11, 2005 16:47:12 GMT -5
Erin:
We'll wait to hear from you after the D&C. Best of luck with that. I am sorry about the BO as well, but glad it's not the Molar! I will keep you and your family in my thoughts and prayers.
Katherine
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Post by Egirl on Aug 12, 2005 0:23:21 GMT -5
Thanks to all again....for your prayers and warm thoughts. It truly helps! I am of course, nervous about my surgery tomorrow. DH will be by my side. I think I am most nervous about being asleep. I've been awake with a spinal through 2 C-sections, so I'm accustomed to being coherent during surgery if possible. But, the Dr. feels that me being asleep is the best way. I will take her advice. I will check in with you after my eyes aren't crossed anymore from the anethesia! Heh. Am anxious to have this whole ordeal behind me.
Thanks again for being such great listeners. You've touched me deeply.
Erin
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Post by Egirl on Aug 12, 2005 0:26:06 GMT -5
Thurese~ I am so sorry about your situation right now, but am very happy for you that your levels are going back to normal. If you feel up to it, please tell me more about what your experience has been with that. I truly sympathize. I made it through my Molar and went on to have 2 healthy babies! Keep hanging in there and know I am keeping YOU in MY thoughts!
Hugs~ Erin
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Post by justinsmomma on Aug 12, 2005 3:02:55 GMT -5
Erin
My thoughts and prayers are with you today as you have your surgery. I am so glad for you that it is not a molar m/c but still sad for your loss. God bless you for your kind words. It has truly helped me in so many ways to know that people care, and hearing other people's stories always put my situation into perspective.
Big HUGS quick recovery vibes and lots of good wishes for you,
Kris
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Post by thurese on Aug 12, 2005 13:47:37 GMT -5
Erin, I hope you are well after your d & c...it's a tough time for sure. Thanks for listening(reading!) about my situtation. I was told I had a nonviable pregnancy on July 1 because of an ultrasound to rule out an ectopic. I saw my regular ob.gyn doc on July 5 who ordered another ultrasound...she called me about the results --without telling me about the mole--and scheduled a d & c for later that night. I went in the next week for a follow up and was told about my complete mole. My hcg at the d & c was 89,852 and at the week f/u, it was down to 11,001. This last Wednesday was my 5th test and I am at 11. It is such a random, freak thing, isn't it? It is comforting to hear that you went on to have two children after the whole nightmare. Anyway, please keep us posted about yourself...you will be in my thoughts and prayers. ~Thurese
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