stacym
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Post by stacym on Aug 6, 2005 22:25:45 GMT -5
I am sure I am not the first to experience this, but it has been a really rough day. I had to work today(I work as a hospice RN--a tough and emotional job for me on a good day) and I just couldn't stop crying. I was sitting outside of a patient's house in my car for 15 minutes trying to get it together so I could go inside, but I just couldn't stop crying. I ended up calling in sick and having the back-up nurse work for me. I really started feeling like I was losing my mind. No matter what I did, I just couldn't stop crying. And it wasn't that I was really all that upset either--I just felt soooo emotional and on edge. I came home and got in bed and cried for almost 4 hours. It really freaked out my husband. Even now, I feel like I could just start crying, but I am afraid that if I start I won't be able to stop again. I wonder if this is a "sign" that my body is getting closer to m/c'ing on its own. Maybe my hormone levels are changing?? I am just praying that my body figures this out and takes care of it without intervention. I am just so stressed out because I feel like a ticking time bomb. My dilema is that on top of everything else right now, I am directing a community theatre production. Opening night was last night. I am trying to keep it all together so that no one finds out what is going on. The problem is that next weekend(starting on Thursday) I have to run the sound board for the productions. What is going to happen if the m/c starts during that time??? I am wondering if I shouldn't just have the d & c on Monday or Tuesday so that I don't have that addedd stress and worry all next week. And I wonder why I was such a mess today? Stacy
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Post by Heather (hlam) on Aug 6, 2005 23:37:25 GMT -5
Stacy, I'm so sorry to hear that you had such an extremely emotional day. It's hard to say "why" you are so upset exactly with everything that you have going on. I think that your probably just overwhelmed at this point with so much happening in your personal and professional life. I myself took medication to induce a miscarriage. I wasn't interested in a D & C....I will do anything to stay away from doctors!!! I stayed home and took the medication and miscarried within 22 hours from start to finish. Although thats not saying I recommend that way at all! It wasn't without issues and everyone needs to do what they feel is best for them. The only thing that I would say is that I think you'd find some level of closure if you didn't have to keep waiting. However, only you would know how you'd really feel. Your in my thoughts and prayers. I'm hoping for better days to come for you!
((((HUGS))))
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alaskaice
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"When God shuts a door.... He always leaves a window open"
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Post by alaskaice on Aug 7, 2005 4:02:34 GMT -5
you know the first day I cried alot.... everyone I talked to I cried.... then the next day I was fine. I live in Alaska and was planning a trip home (to arkansas my dh is military) and found out i couldn't buy a plane ticket for a trip I was planning in Sept. I couldn't stop crying yesterday either unitl I got the money and then even then i cried some more and my hubby does't know how to act.... I have to get away from this place... have to get away from everything.. here that reminds me.... it's hard to handle......Good luck to you..
And trust me... after the miscarriage (mine was last week) you'll still cry you'll have your good days but youll have your bad days to.Just hang in there....
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Post by justinsmomma on Aug 7, 2005 6:35:39 GMT -5
Stacy,
Oh hunny. I am so sorry for everything. It does sound like the emotions are a result of your hormonal fluxes. I can only speak for myself, but I was very afraid of dealing with the natural m/c so both times I opted for the D&E. I healed really quickly and had virtually no pain or blood. There is no shame in going that way if you don't want to postpone the inevitable anymore. Big big HUGS!!!!!!!!!!! I still have crying fits btw.
Kris
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Post by vernkatherine on Aug 7, 2005 19:42:55 GMT -5
Hi Stacy. I am so sorry to hear about your loss. You will remain in my thoughts and prayers. Both of my BOs I miscarried naturally. The first time I was 9 weeks, started spotting on Saturday, had the u/s on Tuesday and Wednesday I was done. The second time I had the u/s on Friday - that's when I was told it was a BO - no signs before hand - again, at 9 weeks. Saturday I started spotting, but the m/c took a little longer w/the second one - all was said and done by the following Wednesday (of course I still bled, but the cramping was gone and obviously I had passed the products of conception). With the second one they offered me the D&C because I was on my way back to the States from Italy and they didn't want it happening in transit. (My husband is Military and we were stationed over there.) I waited (more because we were traveling to France - trying to get that last tourist trip in -hahaha) - and it happened on it's own. I wish you the best and will be checking to see how you're doing. Best of luck.
Katherne
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Post by kurby68 on Aug 7, 2005 20:02:37 GMT -5
Oh Stacy
Let me say I had a few days like that. It was really a hard time. It does get easier but it takes time. Know that as each day passes it gets better but it may take a bit to notice.
I am sending you ((((((((((((((hugs)))))))))))
Take care
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micki
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Post by micki on Aug 8, 2005 9:19:32 GMT -5
Stacy,
My heart goes out to you. I never did m/c naturally, I waited about 2 weeks but nothing so the doctor did a D&E. I do know with me I had many days where I just cried, nothing could console me and some days I didnt want to get out of bed on. It is an extremely emotional and heartbreaking time. I am praying for you and your family. Micki
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