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Post by starieblueyes on Jul 22, 2005 20:33:45 GMT -5
Well words cant explain how im feeling. What is the luck of 4 in a row?? Very doubtful. Im starting to think chromosome issue. My lmp was June 8th. I have had a few hcg quantitative tests done and all came back doubling like it should. Progesterone high. My doctor wont continue them since we can do u/s now. I had a transvaginal done yesterday. She dated me 5.5 weeks along. Nothing was present. Not even a yolk sac. Im sure it should be present by now. Its taken me 5 years now to get pregnant agian. Im freakin out. I just want this to work. I feel helpless. Today I made them take an hcg test since in my last 3 miscarriages the way we could tell was using u/s and quantitatives in unison. I need to know! My u/s isnt for another week and I cant bare to wait that long just to get the bad news of nothing developing as it should when i can tell from the hcg count before then. I was once hopful but now im starting to think this isnt going to happen. Im afraid if I stay positive the let down will do me in. All say its still early but by 5.5 weeks I know a yolk should atleast be seen with a sac 7mm. The hardest thing is when the doctor hasnt been through it as much as you have and they wanna either lead you on about the prognoces or they really dont know and wanna treat it as a normal pg. Does anyone have any experiance where the yolk and embreo werent seen till 6/7th week?
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Post by Heather (hlam) on Jul 22, 2005 20:40:59 GMT -5
I wasn't diagnosed until almost 14 weeks so I don't have any knowlegde on your question but I wanted to tell you how sorry I am that you've had to experience this time and time again. I hope that you get better results with your HCG levels or next ultrasound. You'll be in my thoughts and my prayers. There is a lot of good people here with some good information. I hope that being able to come here will comfort you as much as it does the rest of us.
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Post by starieblueyes on Jul 22, 2005 20:54:24 GMT -5
Thankyou so much. It deffinitely has been helpful reading all your storys. Knowing there are people out there going through the same thing always makes ones pain ease a little. I have no friends or even family to confide in. They all have no clue of what im talking about. I jumped the gun on telling people this time around and I really shoudnt have. I thought..5 years later all should be ok. Who gets 4 in a row? Theres still a little hope but im so glad I have people like you to talk to if it all doesnt pan out! Bless you all for such love devotion and all the time givin. Words cant explain the comfert I feel being able just to talk about it. Im so very sorry for your loss. You are in my thoughts as well. love light and happiness. Jennie
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Post by mommy2brayden&Isaac on Jul 22, 2005 22:07:01 GMT -5
I just wanted to say that I'm sorry you might be going threw this again....I understand how your feeling, I've had 3 BO's after having my son who is now 2.5 I just had my 3rd D&C a week ago and I'm waiting for the pathology results. When I go for my 3 wk. followup my doc. is going to start me on Clomid and prometrium. Hopefully this will work b/c I cannot stomach another BO, it's literally heartbreaking but just know that your not alone. Best wishes, Shauna
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Post by kurby68 on Jul 23, 2005 7:24:37 GMT -5
Jennie
I am so sorry that you have been through so much! I hope that you get your answers. Just know that you have found a place where you will be understood and given the support that you need one way or another.
I do pray that you get the answers you would love.
(((((((((((((hugs))))))))))))))) Take care
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Post by starieblueyes on Jul 23, 2005 14:56:07 GMT -5
Hello,
Thanks for your responces! Means alot. Today im a little more hopful. Im trying to keep my mind off of things. I did want to state that this time getting pg was with clomid and I belive thats why my hormone levels are so good right now. I made the on call doc do another hcg count since I knew I woudnt make it through the weekend with stress and such. He called me inbetween trying to deliver two healthy babys and stated my count was suppost to be at 6,000 and im 9,000 so theres a glimmer of hope there. I truly am greatful for his call back. I think I might have made myself spot a little with how much I was freakin out!
I do belive clomid helps with the situations of ovulation problems and low hormonal levels. I havent been able to concive for 5 years! I got it on the first try so I can say its an amazing help! It has such a good turn out rate!
Theres always hope and im here rooting for you! You have much to look forward too! The best part is you can try again! I know its tough but theres still a chance!
I donno if you guys belive in divination but my husband & I do tarot card readings once in a while for our situations and it helps put us in better perspective. It can dig up subcontious issues you might not be seeing plainly in front of you and help you realize where you can maybe change the tides. Mabe not change the total out come of whats ment to be but help you through it a bit better and steer you in the right direction. There was a good turn out in my reading last night after a relaxing hot bath. It said that my husband Jeremy should take the rains and help me with any conserns we may have by being more vocal and talking to my doctor. It also said to help alleviate the stress I have and try and keep things more calm. I just need to stay positive and try to relax. Let nature do its thing. What ever happends is ment to happen. All I can to is hope. We lay together alot and just meditate with eachother. We bond and focus on the baby sending it healthy vibrent energy. It makes a world of difference! Im always cramping and tender down there and it helps that deminish too.
Maybe that will help you guys in your journey to trying again. Im here if you need me.
Love light and happieness Jennie
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Post by justinsmomma on Jul 24, 2005 6:59:41 GMT -5
Jennie,
Hello and welcome! I am so sorry you have been so much. You seem like a very positive person and it amazes me that you have retained your hope and good spirits through everything you have been through. I love that you and your DH can meditate and encourage each other through your spiritual methods. I will have to look up divination, I honestly have never heard of it. I myself am more of a God/Jesus person but I can tell you that it has done a lot for my psyche and has helped me heal through the roughest of times. Keep your husband close and your thoughts positive!!! Anyway I pray that the outcome this time is better for you two and you will be blessed with a healthy baby. If you need advice just ask. I have been through two b/o's and fertility testing/treatment if you need a point of reference.
Big HUGS
Kris
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Post by starieblueyes on Jul 26, 2005 19:34:02 GMT -5
Divination is something totaly natural. Its just tapping into your intuition for guidence. Nothing negitive or evil about it. In fact some christians believe its a gift from god himself. I believe that we all have it to varying degrees. Thank you so much for the encouragment and understanding! I to am sorry for your losses. For what ever reason something else was planned for all of us in each loss. I feel so blessed that I was atleast able to have my son. I only wish when It does all pass this next experiance will be much more positive. My son was born at 33 weeks so I went through the neonatal experience as well. Tough times but hes healthy now. You would never even have guessed he almost didnt make it. All of this has taught me so much. I have found each situation has made me cherrish the better times so much more. Thats a rare gift indeed. Nothing is taken for granted around here.
I do have a question tho. If this one turns out to be non viable where do I turn to find out why? Being its my 4th its obviously no qoincidence. I have a feeling this one is going to be ok. Its that intuition of mine. But if something does go arie it would be helpful to know and I can turn my focus to that path. I will know for sure about this pregnancy thursday. If nothing is seen in the sac then its another bo. Thank you so much for your preyers! & Thank you again for your support! It's such a blessing to have. My other 3 miscarriages and pre mature birth I did souly alone. No family came to my aid and even my DH was distant at the time. Im very greatful things have turned this time around.
Love light and happiness Jennie
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Post by justinsmomma on Jul 27, 2005 5:20:55 GMT -5
Jennie,
IF this pregnancy is non-viable then I would suggest going to a fertility specialist (if you haven't already done so) and getting a complete work up. But I am still hopeful for you and anxiously await your results Thurs.!
I just wanted to comment on the last thing you mentioned, about doing everything yourself. I could totally relate to that. I went through a lot over the past 5 years myself. Two m/c, my Dad's death and my son's birth. I had to learn to survive alone, using my own coping mechanisms...because I didn't have any support. My marriage almost broke up over it but I am receiving support this time around and I too am so grateful for it. I don't regret the experiences that got me here, however horrific because they made me grow and mature in ways I never expected...but having support is wonderful and helps so much when you have another child to care for. ;0)
Anyways HUGS my 3 1/2 year old is up now so this will be my last post!
Kris
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Post by starieblueyes on Jul 27, 2005 14:22:03 GMT -5
Wow!! Im so sad you had to go through all that much to learn and grow Its part of the greater plan I guess but I wish I could of been a support for you. Your definitely someone to learn from. *Big Hugs* Your inspiration. I have been to a fertility specialist bac when we lived in Oregon, but he dropped the ball and went out of practice and didnt even tell me what all they did for testing or what the results turned out to be. I was put on clomid because I coudnt concieve at the time and only for one month. I took it the once and it failed so I just said forget it. When it happends it happends. They didnt do any research on my miscarriages. The main concern was getting me pregnant agian. The main thing is they cost money. Our insurance wont cover that. So I was wondering if insurance would pay for a tissue sample to be analyzed if I were to have another mc. Im pretty hopeful preyers are workin!! I think tomarrow will go fine and you played a huge part in tha Thank you so much
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Post by blshepherd2003 on Jul 27, 2005 21:04:35 GMT -5
Jennie, I feel your pain and your fear sweetie and wish I could give you a big hug. I just went through my second D&C last Monday due to two blighted ovums. My heart is breaking after two and I can only guess that you must feel the same way.....only worse. I don't have alot of advice because I'm still trying to find a way to deal with it myself. Just try to trust that God didn't intend for those babies to make it.....and try to remember there is still hope. Keep your chin up and try to treat this pregnancy as your first....I do hope all goes well at your next ultrasound. I will be thinking of you. Betsy
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Post by starieblueyes on Jul 28, 2005 13:29:20 GMT -5
Im so sorry for your loss recently:( But I do have a little bit of hope for all of you. After 3 bo's, today I saw the yolk sac a tiny embryo and a flutter of a heartbeat!! It was to small to measure but it was there! I was to scared to look at the screen. I looked at my dh and he looked so worried so I look at the screen and at first it looked empty but my doctor was trying to figure out how to turn up the contrast. Soon as she figured that out we saw it. She went so fast tho and didnt even measure the sac. The embryo measure 6mm. My doctor doesnt want to see me for another 4 weeks tho Im not sure if thats really a good thing. You would think she wants to get a heartbeat count. Shes going to put me on progesterone till my 10th week to make sure I have that dose of extra hormone for the time being. I just hope all still works out well. This time tho..no bo!! So theres always hope!! If I can do this after 5 years of infertility and 3 miscarriages then so can you guys!!! I am wishing you all so much love Im always preying for you and im always here ;D
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Post by kurby68 on Jul 28, 2005 14:55:40 GMT -5
Oh Jennie I am so very happy for you. My dr was like that too. She didn't want to see me all the time. It was supposed to be every 4 wks, but I had a few problems along the way. I would love to say you won't worry and everything will go smooth but. I still worry and I had cramping, spotting, low progesterone etc....
In the end it is so worth it. Good luck. (((((((((((((9higs)))))))))))))
Keep us posted and come over to ttc & pg area if you need anything at all.
Take care
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Post by micki on Jul 28, 2005 16:24:35 GMT -5
Jennie ~ YEA!! That is wonderful news! After our first U/S at 5weeks my doctor let me come in the next week and then in 2 weeks...wow ~ that helped me SO much...but now I am on the regular 4 week visit and still get freaked out! I am very happy for you! Micki
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Post by justinsmomma on Jul 28, 2005 17:26:32 GMT -5
That is just the best news!! I am so happy for you!!
Lots of prayers and HUGS for the road ahead. We have a pregnant after b/o heading here, please feel free to join us when you are ready!
HUGS
Kris
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Post by starieblueyes on Jul 28, 2005 18:01:45 GMT -5
You guys are so wonderful!! Thank you for all your wishes. It helps consitterably. You guys have made my days up to this point so much easier! Ill meet you guys over at the pregnancy after bo board! Love peace and healthy happy baby happiness Jennie
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Post by starieblueyes on Jul 29, 2005 15:46:39 GMT -5
I plan on trying to get some kind of an u/s before my next 4 week appoinment. How to do it I dont know. Maybe get a second oppinion. Anyone have any ideas??
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Post by Blighted Ovum Board Admin on Jul 30, 2005 23:36:25 GMT -5
Jennie,
Congrads on seeing the h/b!!!!
I'm guessing it will be hard to get another u/s before your next appointment. Even if you went to another Dr. that might be tough to pull off--some seem to do an u/s and some appear to make the individual wait until later to try to hear the h/b. Have you tried calling back and explaining your history and how anxious you are feeling? Maybe you can talk them into it.
It really does sound so much like everything is going to be ok. I'm so excited for you!!!
***hugs*** Lin
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Post by blshepherd2003 on Aug 1, 2005 10:32:00 GMT -5
Jeannie, I am so happy for you and your news just brought a big smile to my face. I wish you the very best and please keep us posted! Betsy
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