Post by jalbert on May 28, 2005 8:13:29 GMT -5
Hi everyone,
After all of my internet searching, I was so thrilled to see a site dedicated to blighted ovum miscarriage support. It's with sadness that we come together; I am sorry for every one of your losses. What a great support this forum seems to be.
I've just read Dawn's thread, and have a pretty identical story. I'm 29, have been married to a wonderful guy for 2 years, and got pg for the first time (and on the first try - we were "lucky") in Jan. Just like you, Dawn, DH and I went for our 13 week app't in eager anticipation of hearing the HB. I had been so ill for about 5 weeks - insane food aversions and a constant queasy feeling. In fact, at one point I made a deal with the baby; "I'll be sick for you if you promise to be healthy for us". Well, no HB at the 13 week app't, and I was measuring small. AND, when I went to give a urine sample, I noticed some very small, light brown spotting. My doc still didn't seem over worried, but told me to go for a blood test to check my HcG the following day. Well, the spotting got worse, and she sent me for u/s.
I know you all know the shock - seeing the empty sac and going, "um, okay, so where's the baby?" It was the most shocking, devastating, and unbelievable thing that's ever happened to me. They asked all kinds of questions: "are you sure of your dates"...etc. Then told me a had an unviable pregnancy. I tried to hold it in while we were in the u/s room, then I lost it. NOTHING THERE? How the heck was I sick as a dog for 5 weeks???I felt like some kind of freak woman with a Poltergeist growing inside of me. I thought I should have instinctively known that there wasn't really a baby there. To be honest, I didn't know that it was physically possible to have a pregnancy grow without a baby. I was very relieved to learn what a blighted ovum is, and that it not uncommon.
I ended up having a D&C on April 9, at 13.5 weeks. It was a month from hell, and actually continued into May - I spotted for a month after the D&C, and had another u/s to determine that I had retained products. Great. So my HCG was down to 12 - I was given misoprostol to expel any leftover products, and left it at that. That was on the 17th of May. By some GREAT miracle, 6.5 weeks after my D&C, i got my AF. Sooooooo happy to see it! The wildest part of this AF is that whatever was left in my uterus passed with it, and it totally freaked me out yesterday am. It was the size of a prune (sorry if TMI)!!! I'm so relieved, though, b/c my ob was right ("whatever's left will pass with your next period"), and so was the radiologist in telling me that there were products left.
I knew from the time of the m/c that I wanted to try again when my body was ready. Emotionally it's been a very trying time, but I have renewed hope now that AF has resurfaced. One lesson that this has taught me is that pregnancy does not guarantee that you're going to have a baby. It is a long and arduous journey, but I know I will be equally excited for my second pregnancy as I was for my first. Now we just have to wait a week or so, and we'll be on ttc bandwagon.
Apologies for the novel - thanks for letting me join the group!
Julia
After all of my internet searching, I was so thrilled to see a site dedicated to blighted ovum miscarriage support. It's with sadness that we come together; I am sorry for every one of your losses. What a great support this forum seems to be.
I've just read Dawn's thread, and have a pretty identical story. I'm 29, have been married to a wonderful guy for 2 years, and got pg for the first time (and on the first try - we were "lucky") in Jan. Just like you, Dawn, DH and I went for our 13 week app't in eager anticipation of hearing the HB. I had been so ill for about 5 weeks - insane food aversions and a constant queasy feeling. In fact, at one point I made a deal with the baby; "I'll be sick for you if you promise to be healthy for us". Well, no HB at the 13 week app't, and I was measuring small. AND, when I went to give a urine sample, I noticed some very small, light brown spotting. My doc still didn't seem over worried, but told me to go for a blood test to check my HcG the following day. Well, the spotting got worse, and she sent me for u/s.
I know you all know the shock - seeing the empty sac and going, "um, okay, so where's the baby?" It was the most shocking, devastating, and unbelievable thing that's ever happened to me. They asked all kinds of questions: "are you sure of your dates"...etc. Then told me a had an unviable pregnancy. I tried to hold it in while we were in the u/s room, then I lost it. NOTHING THERE? How the heck was I sick as a dog for 5 weeks???I felt like some kind of freak woman with a Poltergeist growing inside of me. I thought I should have instinctively known that there wasn't really a baby there. To be honest, I didn't know that it was physically possible to have a pregnancy grow without a baby. I was very relieved to learn what a blighted ovum is, and that it not uncommon.
I ended up having a D&C on April 9, at 13.5 weeks. It was a month from hell, and actually continued into May - I spotted for a month after the D&C, and had another u/s to determine that I had retained products. Great. So my HCG was down to 12 - I was given misoprostol to expel any leftover products, and left it at that. That was on the 17th of May. By some GREAT miracle, 6.5 weeks after my D&C, i got my AF. Sooooooo happy to see it! The wildest part of this AF is that whatever was left in my uterus passed with it, and it totally freaked me out yesterday am. It was the size of a prune (sorry if TMI)!!! I'm so relieved, though, b/c my ob was right ("whatever's left will pass with your next period"), and so was the radiologist in telling me that there were products left.
I knew from the time of the m/c that I wanted to try again when my body was ready. Emotionally it's been a very trying time, but I have renewed hope now that AF has resurfaced. One lesson that this has taught me is that pregnancy does not guarantee that you're going to have a baby. It is a long and arduous journey, but I know I will be equally excited for my second pregnancy as I was for my first. Now we just have to wait a week or so, and we'll be on ttc bandwagon.
Apologies for the novel - thanks for letting me join the group!
Julia