Post by adkmrow on May 3, 2005 14:23:50 GMT -5
I was due for af on March 31st. On April 1-3 I spotted and then it stopped. On April 8th I needed to know if i was pg or not and took a hpt and it came back positive. I was shocked (we were not trying) and happy.
On April 14th at 5.4 weeks i started to bleed heavily, and called the dr. Dr A told me to come right in. I did a pg test, internal and u/s. The good news was that the pg test came back positive and i wasnt passing any clots. But the bad news was there was only an empty sac. Dr A told me to come back next week for another u/s it may be too early to see anything yet. Dr A also sent me for bloodwork which came back over 16,000.
At 6.0 weeks i did more bloodwork (they forgot to call it in and it was saturday) and it came back over 38,000.
At 6.2 weeks I did another u/s and more bad news. The sac was the right size but still empty. Dr A called me and diagnosed me with a bo. I was devasted. Dr A suggested a D&C and i told her i would mc on my own. She gave me no hope. Dr A then suggested another u/s next week. I made the appt.
During the time i thought about it and i knew i couldnt go through the pain of seeing another empty sac so i cancelled the appt.
I was feeling more and more nauseous. I felt it wasnt fair to be so sick and have nothing to show for it. No baby nothing. I was also tired alot. It was unbearable waiting for the inevitable, a mc.
On April 29th at 7.5weeks i decided to take the easier way and get another hcg count. I was so sick i need to know what was going on.
By the time the numbers came back i knew the OB office would be closed and it was a fri. So I decided i dont care i am going to have the dr on call call me back because i cannot wait any longer. My favorite dr , Dr P, called me back and i told her everything about what has been happening these last couple of weeks. Of course she agreed with the other dr and also gave me no hope. I asked her why i am so sick and she said with numbers like 38,000 you will be sick. So again no hope. I told her it has been over a week of waiting for mc and nothing. Dr P said well if u dont mc soon we will have to do D&C because u will be in er hemoragging. She said she will have to call to get the results and that she would call me back in a hr.
It felt like days when she finally called me. I was braced for the bad news that my counts have gone down. Dr P said that my numbers went up to over 115,000. I was in shock and wondered what bad news that could mean. She said it is either a viable pg or a molar pg. I know what a molar pg is and it is too scarey to even think of. SHe told me that i need a u/s on monday to see what is going on. I asked her what she thought and she said that you will see the baby and the heartbeat. I told her i dont believe it!! She said you will when you see it on Monday. I asked her what about the molar. She said that is very rare.
I called repeatly on monday to make an appt and the line was busy,so fed up i went to the office and got a 4:30pm appt. I knew it would be the longest day of my life. When i got home there was a msg on my machine from the Dr A the orginial dr. I called her back and she started with the doom and gloom. SHe said I am very concerned it is a molar pg. I was so scared. I told her that dr p said it is probably a viable pg. DR A said well she hasnt been following you like i have. I asked DR A if if i could be seen earlier because the wait is more than i can take right now. I need to know what is going on even if it is bad news.
My u/s appt was at 1:30. I drilled the Tech about my situation. I asked her if anyone has not seen a baby at 6 weeks and then seen it at 8w. she said i am not going to tell you it has never happened. I told her that Dr P said i will see the baby and hb and that Dr A said it was a molar pg. The tech said well lets not speculate and just do it. I was so nervous. Well of course she looked at the cervix first. Lets get to the sac i was thinking to my self. Finally, she moved up. And there is was the BABY...OMG I started to cry i couldnt believe it. 3 weeks of torture and there is my baby. It is a miracle. I asked her if that is the heart beating and she said yes. There goes the tears again. I tell her i am sorry for crying all over her and she said no problem ...I tell her i was so nervous...she says you were making me nervous that i was going to see a molar pg. I said I needed this good news. She said I can only tell you good news... everything looks great a perfect 8 week baby...i have nothing bad to say.
Definately the happiest day of my life so far. The rollercoaster ride it finally over.
I am telling you this story so that you do not give up hope. If I went with what the drs said i would have done a D&C, and never known. Dr P said that some babys grow slower than others. I dont understand why no one told me this when they diagnosed me with a bo. I dont think drs do the medical profession justice if they give ppl no hope. I think we all deserve some hope just to make it through the tough times because in my case everything was fine and i was stressed because of them.
I hope everyone's pg turns out with a healthly baby, and that you prove the drs wrong!
Thanks for reading my story,
April
dd 7/22/97
dd 7/25/99
ds 1/20/03
Baby #4 edd 12/12/05
On April 14th at 5.4 weeks i started to bleed heavily, and called the dr. Dr A told me to come right in. I did a pg test, internal and u/s. The good news was that the pg test came back positive and i wasnt passing any clots. But the bad news was there was only an empty sac. Dr A told me to come back next week for another u/s it may be too early to see anything yet. Dr A also sent me for bloodwork which came back over 16,000.
At 6.0 weeks i did more bloodwork (they forgot to call it in and it was saturday) and it came back over 38,000.
At 6.2 weeks I did another u/s and more bad news. The sac was the right size but still empty. Dr A called me and diagnosed me with a bo. I was devasted. Dr A suggested a D&C and i told her i would mc on my own. She gave me no hope. Dr A then suggested another u/s next week. I made the appt.
During the time i thought about it and i knew i couldnt go through the pain of seeing another empty sac so i cancelled the appt.
I was feeling more and more nauseous. I felt it wasnt fair to be so sick and have nothing to show for it. No baby nothing. I was also tired alot. It was unbearable waiting for the inevitable, a mc.
On April 29th at 7.5weeks i decided to take the easier way and get another hcg count. I was so sick i need to know what was going on.
By the time the numbers came back i knew the OB office would be closed and it was a fri. So I decided i dont care i am going to have the dr on call call me back because i cannot wait any longer. My favorite dr , Dr P, called me back and i told her everything about what has been happening these last couple of weeks. Of course she agreed with the other dr and also gave me no hope. I asked her why i am so sick and she said with numbers like 38,000 you will be sick. So again no hope. I told her it has been over a week of waiting for mc and nothing. Dr P said well if u dont mc soon we will have to do D&C because u will be in er hemoragging. She said she will have to call to get the results and that she would call me back in a hr.
It felt like days when she finally called me. I was braced for the bad news that my counts have gone down. Dr P said that my numbers went up to over 115,000. I was in shock and wondered what bad news that could mean. She said it is either a viable pg or a molar pg. I know what a molar pg is and it is too scarey to even think of. SHe told me that i need a u/s on monday to see what is going on. I asked her what she thought and she said that you will see the baby and the heartbeat. I told her i dont believe it!! She said you will when you see it on Monday. I asked her what about the molar. She said that is very rare.
I called repeatly on monday to make an appt and the line was busy,so fed up i went to the office and got a 4:30pm appt. I knew it would be the longest day of my life. When i got home there was a msg on my machine from the Dr A the orginial dr. I called her back and she started with the doom and gloom. SHe said I am very concerned it is a molar pg. I was so scared. I told her that dr p said it is probably a viable pg. DR A said well she hasnt been following you like i have. I asked DR A if if i could be seen earlier because the wait is more than i can take right now. I need to know what is going on even if it is bad news.
My u/s appt was at 1:30. I drilled the Tech about my situation. I asked her if anyone has not seen a baby at 6 weeks and then seen it at 8w. she said i am not going to tell you it has never happened. I told her that Dr P said i will see the baby and hb and that Dr A said it was a molar pg. The tech said well lets not speculate and just do it. I was so nervous. Well of course she looked at the cervix first. Lets get to the sac i was thinking to my self. Finally, she moved up. And there is was the BABY...OMG I started to cry i couldnt believe it. 3 weeks of torture and there is my baby. It is a miracle. I asked her if that is the heart beating and she said yes. There goes the tears again. I tell her i am sorry for crying all over her and she said no problem ...I tell her i was so nervous...she says you were making me nervous that i was going to see a molar pg. I said I needed this good news. She said I can only tell you good news... everything looks great a perfect 8 week baby...i have nothing bad to say.
Definately the happiest day of my life so far. The rollercoaster ride it finally over.
I am telling you this story so that you do not give up hope. If I went with what the drs said i would have done a D&C, and never known. Dr P said that some babys grow slower than others. I dont understand why no one told me this when they diagnosed me with a bo. I dont think drs do the medical profession justice if they give ppl no hope. I think we all deserve some hope just to make it through the tough times because in my case everything was fine and i was stressed because of them.
I hope everyone's pg turns out with a healthly baby, and that you prove the drs wrong!
Thanks for reading my story,
April
dd 7/22/97
dd 7/25/99
ds 1/20/03
Baby #4 edd 12/12/05