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Post by whitetigress827 on Feb 20, 2005 22:46:25 GMT -5
Hi everyone. I am having a really hard time right now. My anniversary of the loss is in 8 weeks, April 17th. I am trying so hard not to think about it, but my wedding is April 16th, and no matter how hard I try, I can't forget that after celebrating something so wonderful, I get to remember something so horrible the next day. And I know that I'm not going to be able NOT to think about it. The day of my wedding is exactly a year to the day of finding out. 17th was the D&C. The wedding was already planned before, otherwise we would have changed it. I'm sitting here just trying not to cry. And my best friend is due 2 weeks after the wedding. I'm having such a hard time handling everything. Thanks for listening.
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Post by justinsmomma on Feb 21, 2005 5:40:58 GMT -5
Sweetie,
Believe me, we have all been there with the anniversary of our loss. My one year anniv. of my 2nd b/o was in September. I was so anxious and upset...but not nearly so much as when my due date rolled around. The sadness was so much fresher then...but when the due dates, anniversaries, etc. come there is so much anxiety just around the date, that when the date actually comes I find that you are already done with being sad. Does that make sense? Plus you are getting married!!!!!!!!! That is awesome!!!!!! Congrats!!!!!!!!!! You have sooo much to look forward to on the 16th. I hope and pray that the 17th you will be so full of joy that you can relax and enjoy your husband...maybe even make another baby? I will be thinking of you, my due date was April 8, so there will be some sadness for me as well in April.
God bless you and your little angel. He or she will be dancing on your wedding day. ;0)
Kris
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Post by kurby68 on Feb 21, 2005 9:25:12 GMT -5
Jami,
I understand. Today is the due date. And I am really sad today. I have had a few days that I have been thinking about it. Today I called in sick and am spending the say w/ my 3 yr dd. All I really want to do is crawl in my bed and cry but I can't so I will do my best to function and make one child happy that I didn't have to work today.
I hope that you can find a way to enjoy your happy day. A wedding is a gloriopus day to show your love. Hey how about this. Get some balloons w/ helium in them and then let them go up to heaven for your little angel. When a friends dd died of cancer we got balloons for all of her classmates and friends to send them to her in heaven.
That would be a special way to include your angel in your day.
Take care
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Post by Lauren on Feb 21, 2005 9:51:43 GMT -5
Dear Jami,
I am sorry about your anniversary coming up, but I agree with the others that you should try to concentrate on the joy of getting married. Are you going away after you get married? Maybe you can plan something special for the 17th with your new husband....
My thoughts are with you. Lauren
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Post by Blighted Ovum Board Admin on Feb 21, 2005 23:24:46 GMT -5
Jami,
{{{{{hugs}}}}} I hope that you are able to find peace and enjoy your wedding. I can kind relate...my blighted ovum was diagnosed 2 days before my first wedding anniversary. We went out to dinner and all I did was glare at pregnant people (not a recommended pastime).
Hopefully you can just focus on and enjoy your wedding and try to keep your mind off the anniversay. You'll be in my prayers.
Lin
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